Tammin Sursok makes a shocking admission about her brutal upbringing as a woman

Tammin Sursok made a devastating admission on Thursday, revealing that she grew up “hating” her body and letting other people define her worth.

The former Home and Away star, 39, said she “wanted to be wanted, wanted to be wanted” as a young girl and struggled with an eating disorder.

The actress posted a series of heartbreaking stories on her Instagram in honor of International Women’s Day, reflecting on the devastating effects she suffered when she was objectified by men.

The first story she told was about a boy she had a crush on who told her that by the age of 15 she had to lose weight.

She revealed she was “paralyzed with fear and lust” as he approached her, saying, “My heart stopped. I had dreamed for years that this moment would come.’

Tammin Sursok, 39, (pictured) made a devastating admission Thursday as she revealed she grew up “hating” her body and letting other people define her worth

But her dream collapsed when the boy brutally told her, “You have to go to Jenny Craig [weight loss program].’

Sursok moved on to her next story, which told of a time when she had dropped to 45 kilograms by forcing herself to throw up after a meal.

“I’d spent the last 40 minutes ramming my cracked and sore knuckles down my throat. I knew this routine well. I had become an expert at lying,’ she said.

“I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and saw my eyes; they looked like they were bleeding. I smiled weakly at my reflection. I was 100 pounds (45 kilos), I thought now people would love me.

The former Home and Away star said she “wanted to be wanted, wanted, wanted” as a young girl and struggled with an eating disorder

The actress posted a series of heartbreaking stories on her Instagram in honor of International Women’s Day, reflecting on the devastating effects she suffered when she was objectified by men

Finally, Sursok shared the story of the 30-year-old man she dated when she was 21, who she let make fun of her body because “I was taught in school that guys like you make fun of you “.

The South African-born Australian ended her post by adding that she used to cry over her body after giving birth and has spent over 30 years being told, “The only way to happiness, worth and love is through seeing others people see my body as good enough.” .

She said: “To all my fellow warriors who have ever struggled with self-esteem, body image and the fear of breaking free from old belief systems, I see you. May we all love each other.”

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The South African-born Australian ended her post by adding that she used to cry over her body after giving birth and has spent over 30 years being told, “The only way to happiness, worth and love is through seeing others People see my body as good enough.”